Rahnjeet Singh… the name I was given

Rahn… the name I gave myself

125… the way I sign my art

I Am… who I am (because a name is just a name)

Who am I… this is who I am. These are my thoughts, my ideals, my beliefs, the way I see the world. Mine is the only truth I know, and I Love me… this is who I am. I own it, my heart, my mind, my decisions, my path, my Fate. I’m responsible for all of it, I never blame anyone else for anything, or regret the way my life turned out. I’d never give that kind of power to someone else. I am grateful to have experienced this life, every moment it has given me has been a gift, an opportunity to be who I am… This is who I am.

When I was young, I called myself out when I was moved by fear, I chose not to be controlled by something I couldn’t understand or know. Instead I chose to turn towards it, and overcome the demons that haunted me. When I got older, those demons took another form. They became the lies we tell ourselves, the ones we reinforce by repeating them to other people. So I refused to lie, though I had once done it to protect those who were close to me. Once I became able to protect them with my own strength, I no longer had any reason to ever lie again. Though that doesn’t mean I was always honest, except to myself, I was done deceiving myself. Instead, I learned how to keep my mouth shut when I needed to… I guess it was a step in the right direction. In fact, I began to call myself out when I did anything that made me feel like I was betraying myself. Not just lying, but the things that give you that sick feeling, the one you get when you’re about to do something you really don’t want to do. Of course, I started chastising myself whenever I did stupid things too, the careless, absent minded, ignorant stuff you catch yourself doing day to day, the stuff you want to call others out for. This was my commitment to self-awareness and personal integrity.

My life was never about becoming someone else. You don’t become who you want to be, you have to be who you want to be. You have to hold yourself accountable to yourself, at all times. Integrity, self-discipline, honesty, these are just words to many people, but these are the keys to self-realization. Its hardest to walk the unpaved road, the road you own, your road. But if you never take responsibility for your life, for the choices you’ve made and the ones you have yet to make, you can never know who you really are, only who you pretend to be. So when we chose that paved road, the road that makes us into someone we don’t really want to be,  we do it because its easier. Its easier to have someone to blame if we fail, if we don’t like who we become. Its easier because we ultimately don’t want to take responsibility for our lives, we’ll take the credit when it works out, but not the blame when it doesn’t. So If you chose the paved road, you have to own it, no matter where it leads. Make choices because they appeal to you, because you can live with them, because their your decisions.

That’s what it means, a crash course in how to “Be your Truth”. So… Who are you?

Because… this is who I am.